I had no memory, but lookinng through my LINE chat history, I saw that during a meal, afemale nurse had
asked me, "Do you think I can ever get married?"
Apparently, I told her ,"You seem kind, so I'm sure you can."
The next day, another female nurse bumped her foot on a door and complaind,
"It hurts, and it's going to leave a bruise," Whatching her, I casually said,"Oh no, poor thing,"
as if I were talking to a friend. From there, we got along, and she asked me why I tried to end my life.
At night, when I couldn't sleep, we wandered around the room together exploring. It was just one day, butit felt fulfiling.
Gradually, my brain returned to nomal, and I went back to being my usual self.
It was awfuk, From that day on, I became the version of my self I have all over again.
In the end, I hate myself, so I just want to go back to being the unfiltered version of me,
the one free from mental illnesses. I want to return to the foolish version of myself-
someone so oblivious that I wouldn't even feel bothered by unpleasant things.
💞 january/6/2025 5:38
I have purchased language books for Deutschland,Russian,and others,
but i haven't beenable to keep up with them, struggling through mentally exhausting days.
Languages are beautiful, aren't they.january/7/2025 3:33
